A double blessing

Right from my teenage years, the disease PCOD has been a torn in my flesh. I was diagnosed with an advanced case of PCOD but not before almost dying from it due to excessive bleeding, but that's a story for another day. As a result of my condition I always had it in my mind that I would never be a mom. I resigned to the fact that I would probably be one of those people that has many dogs in their home. Even before marrying my now husband I told him a hundred times that he probably won't have kids and all the time he said "whatever God has in mind for us". 

After we got married and wanted to start a family, I went to many different doctors trying to find the right treatment. It was an emotional rollercoaster of hope, tears, anger, dissapointment, wanting to give up, depression.... you name it. I never really told anyone the effect the treatment was having on me because I didn't think anyone would understand. I was ready to try anything from diet, exercise, medicines and any new doctor a friend would suggest. It seemed to pay of as I did manage to get pregnant around two years back. We were excited and hopeful but not for long. I miscarried. The one thing I remember clearly though was our journey back from the hospital. My husband asked me, "Why would God let this happen to us when we are faithful to him". At that moment the only thing that came to my mind was the story of Job in the Bible. I narrated to him how Job was a rigtheous man before God but Satan wanted to test his love for God and stole from him everything that was dear to him. However, when Job stayed faithful inspite of his misfortunes, God restored double of whatever he had lost. So I told my husband, we don't know right now why this happened but maybe God will bless us with much more then we are praying for. Oh! how true these words turned out to be.

As soon as the pandemic hit, I took it as an excuse to stop my treatment, I decided it was simply the wrong time. We simply surrendered it to God and decided to continue living our lives and not stressing too much about it. In the midst of the pandemic we started enjoying our time as a couple, taking up cycling and exploring new places........and then to our delight, we find out I am pregnant! 

This time we were pretty nervous about the first sonography considering our previous experience and also the fact that I stopped treatment against my doctors advice. As I seen the doctors expresion as they did my sonography I got even more nervous, they seemed shocked, looked at each other, whispered something I couldn't comprehend. I started to tremble and couldn't take it, so I finally asked if everything was okay. The main doctor smiled and told me I am having twins. Oh the joy! 

My husband was out of the room sitting nervously and the minute he saw me smile, I could see the relief on his face. When I told him we were having two babies, he was thrilled and thanked God for the blessing. The doctors were very nervous about my pregnancy as a twin pregnancy is considered high risk and in my case the risks were even higher. However, I had the smoothest pregnancy ever, no morning sickness nothing. Every book told me the risk of preterm delivery is very high in twins but thanks be to God, I delivered two very healthy boys in my 38th week. 

For me, God made the impossible, possible in my life. So you never know, what you think is impossible for you right now, may be your next testimony. Keep trusting God in your joy and in your sorrows.